In someway

I think I'm gay
There was one day
A man he'd stayed
And I felt the heat
From my head to my feat.

I had to tell
That I wasn't well
To the kid I had
Even though I felt bad
That their beloved dad
They knew they had
Wasn't bad.

And someday
I told them
That I was gay
I wanted them to stay
So we still could play
But the boy he said
No way, no way.

The boy he felt that he was haunted
For all he'd ever wanted
Was me to be a dad
The same one that he'd had
And now all was bad.

His mommy called someday
And said our boy went away
With my gun in his hand
Said that he could not stand
Me being a gay
It had to be that way.

Later on that fall
The last time my son he called
He wanted to say goodbye
And also how, what and why.

I felt that he wanted to die
Suddenly I hear a shot
And the heat I boiling up
I called my son by his name
But there was quiet and no voice came.