This was not how it was suppose to be
You weren't suppose to end up hating me
I loved you
And I still do
But I have to face the fact
That my dream has been ract
But I have to respect your decision
I never knew my life could be a prison
I have received a lot of pain
But it would not be fair to give you the blame
Your feelings for me just wasn't the same
I have to face reality and move on
And face the fact that you are gone
I have never tried to be so powerless
Taking a long look at my self to see which sins I have to confess
What has life got in store for me
At least I don't have to live my life in envy
Thinking of what could or could not be
At least you said it straight out
You did not miss lead my feelings in a dark cloud
Saying I couldn't have you just made me want you more
Feelings like this will do me no good but make my hearth sore
These types of feelings makes my life complicated
If someone told you love was over rated
Then someone lied
It is something you say to keep you pride
I can't see any reason to keep fighting
Without you there is no reason to keep writing
I guess I just didn't have the things you needed
I hope you find the things you are looking for to be completed
Even though it hurts to realize that it was not me
And that I could never be
The person to make you happy
I hope that one day
I will have the guts to confront you and say
The things that I feel but it is very unlikely
Since there is no way to do it rightly
So I wish you peace love and hope
And one day I will find a way to cope