When you go inside of me
you will feel how lonesome I am
The pain that fills me up
Its like a big open wound
You think im so strong
but I cant even help my self up

I have to brake myself down
in order to help myself up
To close the wound I have kept
open all these years
I only put it down in a box whit a big lock
and everytime anything went wrong
it came up and hurted me even more

I have walked on this lonely road to long
But everytime I did open up
It was to strong to heavy for anyone to handle
But I know now that I cant handle it myself
Its hard for me to realise that I cant build up my strength within

I have to brake myself down
In order to let others help me, help myself
Or else they only see they strength there used to be there
And they will think I can do it myself
Its not that I don't have anyone who would like to help me
The thing is I wouldn't let them was to afraid to need
someone and then be let down
I don't know if I could handle that again
I know I have to take that change and try

So I can sleep at night again
So I have the energy to help myself
and help others
I know that I was send to earth for just that
But in a changed way where I don't drain myself
And this is why I have to brake myself down
So I can do what I need to do.